Shattered Day by Day

A perfect relationship isn't ever actually perfect, it's just one where both people never give up.

In my mind, I have always think that love has always been enough. And a lot of times, I have proved myself wrong for believing in such kind of perspective. Nevertheless, I am still hoping for a happy, fairy tale ending. Wishing that everything is only a part of my imaginative world where I am the princess waiting to be saved by my prince. Somehow, things have been difficult as each day passes by.

Moreover, things are different in the real world. Happy endings only happen in the "other world". Living like a martyr was a product of the past. Right now, quitters and dorks rule over our world where promises are always meant to be broken. Sadness, will forever occur my heart. For you have always been giving up on me.

 "If time comes that destiny will take you away from me, I will gladly let you go. But do not worry, I'll be just around the corner, ready to catch you each time you fall."

Sarap sa Dampa!

Foodtrip ang hanap namin kagabi, kumain sa Dampa ng seafoods. Lakad dito lakad dyan, pili pili ng makakainan. Sa sobrang dami kasi ng mga resto ang hirap mamili kung saan ba okay magdinner. Andyan yung sasalubungin ka pa ng mga staff nila to convince you to see their menu, pero nakakairita sila sa totoo lang, parang "di kayo nakakatuwa, sobra naman yang pag ka acommodating nyo!!" 

Naglakad ulit kami to the other row naman and we found "Sis." Napansin namin na hindi masyadong matao and maganda yung ambiance so it's really a good place to spend the dinner so we can also talk. Pamalengke ng food na iluluto, hipon na medium size and halaan ( most people say na aprodisiac daw ito, ahehe). The main course: GINATAANG HIPON AT SINABAWANG HALAAN. 

Talk talk muna while we're waiting for our food. Walang humpay na kumustahan at sermon ang inabot ko sa kanya, nawala kasi fone ko at hindi na naman daw ako naging maingat. Siguro totoo nga, maybe kailangan ko pang bigyan ng extra care kung ano man ang mayroon ako ngayon. Well, back to the food, AYAN NA! 

Itsura palang ng pagkain nabubusog na ako at lalo pa nung tinikman ko. Sobrang sarap talaga! Bat di nyo itry?! I'll give them an "A" sa pagluluto ng ganun kasarap.

What I love most about that place?! may trio na kumakanta and tumutugtog. So soothing kasi mga oldies hits ang kinakanta nila so mas lalong masarap kumain. Until lumapit sila sa amin to sing. Nag uumapaw ako sa kasiyahan when they sing the song "Till There Was You" ng Beatles, ewan ko ba siguro sadyang hopeless romantic lang talaga ako kaya OA yung kaligayahan ko. Masaya talaga coming from my heart. 

Then nirequest nya yung "Kahit Maputi na ang Buhok Ko" Halos malaglag na talaga ako sa kinauupuan ko sa sobrang tuwa, ahaha. Yung kanta kasing yun, parang dun nagsimula ang lahat. First time ko atang ma encounter yung ganun ka-romantic na set-up ng dinner

Nakakatuwa kasi they sang the 2 songs na gusto namin.Kung sinuswerte nga naman talaga kami. Balik na ulit kami sa pagkain after nilang kumanta at hindi pa din ako maka get over dun sa moment na yun.

Hindi na namin kinayang ubusin yung food, ang dami kasi talaga and we're only 2. Take out nalang para hindi masayang. Ang sarap balikan nung lugar, kasi we didn't see any flaws sa service nila and sobrang nag enjoy kami.

Pero sa totoo lang, balewala naman lahat ng iyan kung di ko sya kasama. Mas masarap kasing ibahagi ang ganoong pagkakataon sa taong minamahal kase it's not really the food nor the song ang nagpasaya sa akin ng sobra, it's the fact na he's with me to share that wonderful moments. Jackpot nalang na maituturing yung food at trio na kumanta na lalong nagpaganda ng gabi namin. 

Punong Puno Ng Pagmamahal Ang Puso Ko

Saya, pagmamahal at pag asa — ayan ang laman ng puso ko.. Nang dahil sa kanya, ang dating madilim kong mundo ay sa wakas nakakita ng liwanag.. Simula ng mahalin ko sya, natuto akong mangarap muli para sa aking sarili at para sa aming dalawa na akala ko noon ay hindi ko na magagawa pa.. Natututo akong tumayo sa sarili kong paa dahil sa mga pagpapaalala nya, tinuturuan nya akong mabuhay sa simpleng paraan.. Ang daming bagay na natututunan ko kapag kasama ko sya.. Sa mga simpleng ginagawa nya para sa akin, katumbas nito’y ang nag-uumapaw na kaligayahang nararamdaman ng puso ko..

Wala kahit ano mang maaring tumumbas sa lalim at tindi ng mga napagsamahan namin.. Alam kong napakaraming maaring dumating na mga pagsubok, gaya nga ng sabi nya ay sana’y mapagdaanan namin iyon ng parang wala lang, na may matututunan kami sa bawat pagsubok na dumaraan.. Ang susi lang naman kasi sa para masolusyunan ang isang problema ay ang makinig sa isa’t isa at sa tiwalang ang nararamdaman mo sa puso mo ang kailangan mong sundin para lumigaya ka.. Minsan kasi puro utak ang ginagamit natin, oo nga’t di ka naging malungkot nung ginamit mo ang utak mo pero ang matinding tanong doon ay naging masaya ka ba?

Marami ngang nagsasabi na puro nalang daw ako pagmamahal, di ko naman na kailangang ipaliwanag sa kanila kung bakit, ang alam ko masaya ako dito sa sinasabi nilang puro pagmamahal nalang.. Hindi ba nila kayang maging masaya nalang para sa akin dahil nagyon ko lang naramdaman ito? wala naman kasing masama doon basta’t wala akong napapabayaan at masaya ako’t natuto din akong magbalanse ng oras at prayoridad ko sa buhay.. Ang alam ko isa sya sa napakalaking parte na bumubuo sa akin, kaya’t punong puno ang puso ko ng pagmamamhal para sa kanya..

Lagi akong nagpapasalamat sa Panginoon sa pagbibigay nya ng isang taong magbibigay saya at magmamahal sa akin.. Mabait pa din ang Diyos sa akin, binigay nya kung ano ang kailangan ko.. Isang taong magmumulat sa akin kung gano kasarap mabuhay at magmahal.. Sa pamamagitan ng kanyang tawa, lagi akong nabubuhayan sapagkat kahit matindi ang problema nya, hindi mo ito mahahalata sa kanya.. Napakapositibo nya sa pagharap sa buhay.. Ayan ang gusto ko ding matutunan.. Alam kong hindi perpekto ang love story namin pero masasabi ko namang isa ito sa maipagmamalaki ko balang araw na maari kong ibahagi sa mga taong nais magmahal..

Our Potipot Island Getaway

Only a few people know the Potipot Island (as of the time of this writing). It's a great place for soothing and getting some quite moment together with special someone. Imagine this: you can swim, play with star fishes and little crabs, walk around the island in less than an hour; you only hear the tweeting of the birds, the splashing of the sea water to the shore, the blowing' of the wind and the great laughter and stories! A small paradise, isn't it?

Since only a few people go there, the water is so clean that you can actually see the corals and the fishes swimming! Entrance fee to the island is only 50 pesos (yes, you're reading it right, 50 pesos!)

The Island is so small that there are no inns or hotels, restaurants and facilities in the island (There is a small restroom though). I learned though that you can put up your tent and spend the evening there. But if you want to have the comforts of a bed and/or resort, you can stay on the mainland of Dawal, (where we stayed) which is only a 5 minute boat ride from the island.

Potipot is one great place to stopover should you need to escape the busy Manila.

 Here are some of our photos:

with him.. :)

starfishy.. so lovely!

on boat to potipot Island

same..

The island

The water is so clear.

10 Things I like About Him

1. Sensible, malawak ang pag iisip --- we can talk everything under the sun, ang dami nyang alam...

2. Hanep sa Sense of Humor --- He is my clown and I'm his audience, he never fails to make me laugh
--- Grabe bumanat ng mga humor moves nya.. ahaha, natatawa 
lang ako pag naaalala ko... 

3. Mahilig sa Music (kaboses ni Champ, hehe) --- aba dapat lang!!!

4. Computer Savvy ---- syempre IT sya eh...

5. Neat Tignan --- what I like about him most, ngayon ko lang napansin.. he looks so neat and 
gwapo even if he's just wearing shorts, t-shirts and tsinelas... diba nice yun??!!

6. He Is Trying To Get In Sa Mga Trip Ko --- gumimik at kumain sa labas ng madalas, sumayaw!!! 
I remember one time napasayaw ko sya kase alam nyang
magagalit ako kapag di sya sumayaw sa bar.. ayun...

7. He Understands Me --- sa maraming bagay except sa kadaldalan at kalakasan ng boses ko.. 

8. Good Listener --- He listens sa mga stories ko, sa konting problema, He's always there kapag down
ako, he cheers me up kapag malungkot ako, he gives me piece of advice sa lahat
ng pinagdadaanan ko...

9. Simple Pero Astig --- wala ako masabi, basta kakaiba talaga sya.. First time ko nakakilala ng taong 
wala ka ng hahanapin pa.. parang all in one package sya eh...

10. He Loves His Mother So Much --- nalaman ko based na rin sa mga kwento nya.. At ito ang pinaka
importante na mahal nya yung buong family nya especially yung
mother nya.. Naniniwala kasi ako na kung ano ang pagmamahal
at pagtratong binibigay nya sa pamilya nya at sa nanay nya, ayun
din yung klase ng pagtratong ibibigay nya sakin at sa bubuuin 
naming pamilya someday if kami nga talaga sa huli...

Open Relationship??? I Want More Than That!!!!

Most of us wants a serious relationship, like a typical romance of a couple in a very romantic film. And I am one of the fan, for short, I am hopeless romantic. The man that I like wants an “Open Relationship” set up. I know that he’s so unsure about his feelings for me, but I am the problem!!! I got a deeper feelings for him which I cannot control anymore. We never said I love you to each other because at first we really do not love each other. Tamang loko lokohan lang. But I am so damn in love with him NOW!!!! For me, open relationship is like you enjoy each others company, you acted like you are lovers but there’s no commitment at all, which I really hated most!!!  why I am the one who gets into him with this kind of feeling. I don’t know what to do… Super confused if I will tell him that I love him already and that I want our relationship to go into the deeper one. I am afraid that if I tell him, he might be scared of the commitment and he will say infront of me ” I dont love you…” I hate rejections!

Just One Night

I do not know how I feel, all I know is that I am so confused. Since the time that I had sex with a person that I just met once, yeah, we’ve just dated once and I’m starting to get confused. I have a boyfriend for 3 years, we are happy but sometimes we always come up with a problem about being too controlling, at that time our relationship was on the rocks. Back to the story,it all started when I chatted this person, I knew him way back around 6 years ago but we were not close and no one introduced me to him and we didn’t talk to each other, on the other word, we are a total stranger. I really felt a little excitement under my nerve when we started to have a communication. Since then, we started to chat and text. And then we planned to meet. I am far from him because I’m currently residing in Cavite, while he stays at Makati where he also works. But that certain Friday night, I confirmed to him that I was about to go to Taguig, where my mom lives,Sunday and we can meet up at night. So plans are all set up.

Sunday came, we met at exactly 9:05 PM. When he saw me, I know he’s not comfortable and me too, I dont know what to say! We decided to go to a bar somewhere in Malate, he was so sweet and caring so I felt a little hooked within his plan. We ended up at Bedrock. Great music, nice performances from the band, but only the first one to play, not the other one because it really sucks!!!! We were very close to each other physically at that moment, exchanging stories and I really enjoyed his company. I love listening to his wonderful stories, it really amazed me when someone tells about their hardships and success in life. I felt that he’s kinda caressing me and I started to feel a little uncomfortable.. he started to hold my hand and he said nice things about me that my hair is sexy and I really smells great!! I resisted my self on touching him because I am a bit ashamed,he might think that I really like him, well in fact I do, ahaha. I am just being honest.

He continue to get so close to me and I can’t resist myself anymore from holding him too. He started to kiss me on my hand and cheek. We are not interested in the band anymore, because we are enjoying each other so we didn’t mind the band.. Then he told me something that he wants us to go somewhere else. I knew what he means. But still I insisted him to tell me what he wants. But I already get it. He wants us to go to a place somewhere private.

We left the bar, and we ride a taxi. We end up to a place who’s famous for a short time services.  I won’t going to mention the place anymore, okay. That is my first time to be there. When we entered the room, I washed up, after that he kiss me passionately going down. I really felt an electrical energy during that time.. I know where it will end.Then we did it! And all over again. I knew that we enjoyed it both, who doesn't??? I never felt guilty. I want this man but it seems that he doesn’t like me. And maybe all he wants is SEX, the usual thing for boys. So I told myself that this will be the first and the last, Just one night, and never again!